Pocketful of Rainbows by Hatomile Pocketful of Rainbows pg 122 Hikaru: Oh! Tou-! Touya: ...I'm sorry. I must decline what we talked about before. Man: I see. And it was such an exceptional offer too. I'm sorry to hear it. Touya: I have my hands full with Go right now... Shindo. : I'm sorry, that's all I can say. Please excuse me. Let's go, Shindo. Hikaru: Huh? Hey! : Did something happen......? Touya: Not really, it's not important. We have an appointment to play Go at my house today. Shall we go? pg 123 *rrring rrring rrring* *beep* Touya: Ah, mother. Mmhm...Yeah..... : I'm fine. I'm staying healthy. : Yeah.... I turned it down. Ah, no, it wasn't anything like that... : Yeah... Yeah. Thanks... Talk to you soon. *beep* : What is it? Shindo? Hikaru: .......... Touya: ........Lately, little by little, marriage proposals have begun to arrive. pg 124 : It's only the other Go pros, nothing official, just a standard introduction. : Today it was a request from someone who has done a lot for my mother and I for a long time, a man from my father's support group. : I couldn't just give him a flat refusal... *squeeze* Hikaru: ....... Touya: Ah, I'm sorry. Did I worry you? : It'll be alright! I'll never be interested in something like that, and... Hikaru: That's not it. Touya: Huh? Hikaru: The one who is worried is you. pg 125 Touya: .....Huh? Hikaru: You're thinking about something again, aren't you? You stew over things alone too often, and get depressed. Touya: Shindo... I'm not really..... Hikaru: Liar. I can tell. Touya: Sometimes.... it becomes really unbearable. pg 126 : My parents have always been there for me; they've given me so much, and raised me. And yet... No matter how I try, I can't give them this one thing back. : This natural joy, I can't give it back to my parents. Hikaru: A parent's joy... : For their child to grow up, get married, and have a household of their own, and then give them grandchildren... Touya: Yes... Hikaru: If I weren't here, could you do it then? Touya: No. No, Shindo! That's not right. : This was my choice. pg 127 : Since I was born, all I did was play Go, : And all I lived for was Go. : And there was less and less allowence for making someone happy. : If I never met you, I think I would have continued living a solitary life. : Instead... : Instead, you're the one who suffers. : I've swallowed you up inside myself. : You could... You certainly... If I didn't exist... : I'm sorry... I'm sorry, Shindo...... Hikaru: ....... pg 128 *slap* : Are you mocking me? Touya: Shin... Hikaru: Why would you say such a stupid thing? You don't think I'm with you of my own volition? : So what's it mean that I'm happy when I'm with you? : *Sorry for hitting you.* pg 129 : You... are very sweet. Touya: What? Hikaru: You're a sweet guy. : Thinking only of your parents, and that guy from the support group, and me. Touya: I'm not sweet. I only think about myself. : And that's how I get in these situ... Hikaru: Uh-uh, I'm saying the one who only thinks about himself is a guy like me. : Everyday the only things I think about are Go and you. Touya: They go together... Hikaru: Wrong! : I don't think it's a bad thing to think about. : I only think about the good in it: being together with you, playing Go, and how happy I am. : I guess I'm still only a kid. : Maybe in ten years time I'll start thinking about more realistic things like being a parent. pg 130 Touya: I... : It's not that I'm already reaching that far. Hikaru: Sure. But still, I don't regret things. Touya: ...I don't regret either. : From the beginning, I've only chosen this path. Hikaru: Then it's all good, right? *squeeze* : We're still only kids, and we don't understand our parents' true feelings, : But aren't parents always saying: "Our child's happiness is our happiness"? pg 131 : As long as you are happy, things will be fine. : You blame yourself for not making your parents happy, : But didn't you make them happy just by coming into existence? : Your parents are very important to you, you feel for them deeply, and you want to give them joy. : That is something you give them, and they can feel it. I'm certain. Touya: .... But is that enough...? Hikaru: Mm, I'm sure it's fine. And if that makes you happy. pg 132 : You're happy, aren't you? Right now! *GRIN* Touya: ........ Hikaru: AH, WHAT? What are you hesitating for?! : Am I the only one who's happ~y? Touya-san? *tickle tickle tickle* Touya: N-No! Ha Ha! : You really are amazing. Hikaru: Hm? : Are you going to say something stupid? Or are you not? Hm, Tooooouya-san? Touya: I'm not! I'm not, Shindo! Shindo: Really? Touya: Really! Truly... : You're something.... Really something..... pg 133 : I love you, Shindo. Shindo: Oh? : Whaa~~!!? *squeeze* : *Wh-wh-wh- what brought this on?* I thought I couldn't be happy. I thought I would continue to live alone. But, Perhaps I can be happy. Perhaps it will be all right to be happy. pg 134 If I'm with you. Hikaru: By the way, Touya-san, we both have tomorrow off. Touya: Huh? Hikaru: How about it? We can pull an all-nighter. Touya: All right, let's play Go. Hikaru: THAT IS NOT WHAT I MEANT!! : *It's so irritating when you play it cool!!* Touya: Ahaha That's all, folks.